Lately, all I have wanted to do is scream and hit things. I haven't felt these feelings in a while. I feel that my life is sprialing into shit. I am hoping and praying that I can get back into the school this year. This is my vow, I will not stay in Michigan beyond June. Yes, I am planing to follow suit with some people we have went to school with, but only for a few years. I want to live in Flordia, then Californa. I have not yet decided where I want to go after that. I am so frustrated and don't know why.

It took a lot of courage for me to admit to myself that I was attracted to both ( you all know what I mean), now I find myself attracted to nothing. I still flirt ,a little, but nobody is really get my motor going (allow me to be a little corny). I don't know, I don't think it's deprission. I usually know right off the bat when I am depressed. I think it's just pure bordem. Not with my friends, but with Michigan.

I had a tooth filled that lost it's filling in May or March can't remeber which. Now, the dentist says I might need to see a specialist. They might want to take the tooth or do a rootcannal. DAMNIT. Nothing, can be simple for me. Sorry, I didn't mean to make three paragraphs about nothing I just felt like I needed to get some things strightened out or less crooked in my case. Well, talk at yeah all later.