Okay, I have a lot to say and I either don't want to say it or I don't know were to begin. Still, in love, yeah. We are doin' better then well, but we do have our moments. I think I screwed up big time. The people who read this know that, I don't handle death well. I have to blame it on the fact that I have never had any one, extremly, close to me pass on. Yes, I know a grandmother passed-away this time last year. But, in all honesty I have never really thought about lossing someone close to me. I know we all die and I think about death more then a little bit. I see through my, love, how I am proally going to act; the same way he is when my grandmother passess (but for him his grandfather passed). The only thing is that I would proally be tring to control more of everything, but that's me (the control freak).
I see that love of mine hurting so much, but I don't know what to do.

Still out of work, but my family is not really rushing me. They, gave me till June to find work. My cousin think I might work for GM or something along those lines this summer. Here's hoping.