I have been feeling that my life has become mindnumbingly boring. I do the same thing day in and day out. So it occured to me that if my life is like this now how is it going to be in the future? I dont like things to become mondaine(sp) but I fear that they will become that way in the futrue. So it is up to me to change that. But to change I need money and that involves a job. Any ideas on places that are hiring? let me know.

I am so damn bored right now I dont have any words to explain it!

Looking forward to mid-semster break.

I have to say that I am rather tired of getting up for school write now. I know it is only twice a week but still, I should have know that I would get tired of the early moring B.S. So I am going to enjoy this week off. Maybe clean my room, Naah.

I called around and got a kick ass quote for a jeep, only catch is that they want me to order it. Hmm. I added the cost up and it would be the same as if I got it from the Dealer ship. The catch is that the one I order will be an automatic, worse gas mileage, but I can get a remote start put in. Hmm I think i will go with that.

The tentive dates for New York are July 24-27. So we will leave Michigan aroun 6:oo pm the 23th so we can check in or maybe a little later and sight see on the way there. If we don't site see on the way there we can do it on the way back. Catch the bathroom wil be shared, that scares me in a way. I will pay for the room, but gas cash will be needed on the way there and back. Well class is starting and my fingers hurt from typing all day....

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I have been sick this entire weekend. At one point I thought I might have to go to the hosptial. I had a fever of 102.9 and it was climbing. I have vomited three times, I have a sore thoart, and have been very dizzy. At one point I thought that I was in a washing machine. I also have a few bruses, and got some bloody noises. I wonder if I should be worried about that?

Why Do Needy People Like Me?

Okay, it all started with Jenny. Now this girl in one of my classes, is starting to come on to me. She is a nice person, but so not my type. No, I am not talking about physical looks. This is my findings on the subject matter. Today she told me that her boyfriend Chris dumped her. I barely know this woman and she is telling me this. Furthermore, she always has to be touching my arm when she is talking to me. She stops and talks to me when she is with her other friends. I do, however, think she just might want to be friends and I am so peranoid, that I am reading to much into this. Other evidence I have is that she is always telling me about the "guys" that find her atractive. Now I have just meet this person and she is telling me all this stuff. She is quit conclsive about her life. ( I think I used that word right anyways.) I feel it is odd that she is telling, an almost complete stranger, about her life, more important about her family and the guys, she is into. I hope I am reading too much into this, I like her but as a FREIND ONLY!

Also, today I meet someone very interesting. The most famine guy in the world, or atleast mine. He has hair down to his shoulders, two earings in each ear, red lipstick, eye makeup, and I believe he was wearing a womens shirt. Or I have just meet a very masciline woman at the gas station. Either way, this is really odd. He/She had more male fetures then female and had a deeper voice than I do. It also looked as if this person could bench press me, plus a few extra pounds. In conlcusion for the first time ever I hope that I did not offend anybody about the comments I have made on this site, if I did I am truly sorry for them. These are, after all, just ramblings and events that have happened or have come out of my mouth. Until next ya'll, have a nice day and don't let the little things bug you.

Valentines Day.

Yes I am aware that VD is not until monday, but today it is being celbrated at my house. My mom got my two dvds, and a new cd. I have not yet got her something, flowers are passa (sp), she is a diabetic, no choclate, got her a poem last year, I spent a lot on her necklace so jewlery is out. I have no Idea what to get her. If any of you webbers out there read this give me some ideas.
So I got bored and grabed all my CDs, and downloaded them onto my computer, for safe keeping ;). And I realized that I have about four tapes that I would like to hang on to, for a while. I really don't have any ideas on how to make them into a CD. I don't want to buy them all over again, that would be a waste of money. I went looking online (napster) downloaded some of the songs, but the rest they want me to pay for. Me being cheap right now I said no, any ideas on what to do???

Hmm.

I was at Delta yesterday, erecurting, to be more specific. And this girl walked up to me and said that I have pretty eyes. I don't know how she could tell by the end of the day my eyes were so dry and red, I could tell what color they were. I think she was just being nice. She really wasn't that bad looking though. But I really wasn't looking at her, I was just wanting to get out of that school. I don't know why I felt the need to tell the world that but I did and now I am off. good bye ..

I Have A Bad Case of the I Wants!

Lately, I have noticed that I am wanting more and more items. It is not because I do without, but because I have not been able to go shopping for these said items. When I go out shopping I can not afford to spend my money lavishly. I am lucky to put gas in my truck every week or so. I have made large accomplishments as of late, I have paid my credit card down. My accounts still are low, but with this changing economy I might have a savings account once again.

Throughout my time of unemployment (at my own doing), I have learned to proatize my money. The most important items get paid first, so on and so forth. Does this mean that I have grown up?? Or I am just wanting to be able to say that hey, I am unemploied but yet I still have an ok credit rating??? I think I am growing up. Last year I would have bought the items on my so called "I want list," and said that I will figure a way to pay for my stuff, later. I have learned that when you don't have any money you can not spend it. That can be troublesome for us college kids. To me it seems that every time I turn around I have to pay for something at school. In order to pay for this I have to borrow money hmmm, how do I pay them back?? That is why I love this contry, the Gov't will, usually, reinbures you. I for one like that. But it will not pay my parents, Grandmother, cousin, or my Visa. So that is where I am now, figuring out a budget that I don't have so I can start to pay these people back. Totallying the amount up I am in the whole about 3000 dollars. I have figured my budget, but inorder for it to work out, I need to have some form of income. I am too young to file bankruptcy, and I don't have any kids, so I can't get welfare. I have to get off my butt and get a job..... I have applied to about thrity different places and that was last night and the day before. So yes I am activly looking for employment, and the only standard I have is the refusel to flip burggers, at burger king.

I applogize if it seems asif I am bitching and repeating myself, also I am sorry for the length of this update. I will talk to all of whom who care later this evening online, while I update my reusme.... Goodbye for now....

Pissed Off Mood

I need a job, right? Well that is what I thought too, but my mom said that I can't commute to Citas. However, I really want the job pays good money, and bennifites. So instead I have to settle for 6-something perhour at a mindnumbing job. That is just one of many reasons why I need to move out and get my own place. AAAAAAAAAAAAaa!

Taking a Cue From Miss. Rachel.

Febuary, has made its mark on Michigan. The snow is, almost, all gone and the weather is warming up rather nicely. Even though today is a rainy and kind of crappy day, it still feels nice, to be driving in the rain, rather than the snow. Even though there is no sun, there is a hint of love in the air. However, I am not in love, but for some reason seeing others make faces at their loved ones is rather nice to see. Not!!! I do like this month for one reason, here in Michigan the second month of the year usually means the end of winter. With rain coming down apon us, and the snow everbreating into the atomsphe, it is comforting to know that the girls will be wearing there famous short shorts. I for one am ready to see all the attractive girls in short shorts, I am making a point, here, to tell you all if I see any fat chicks with cottage cheese legs they will be shot on site.

This could be good for someone, we all know, at a certain college on the other side of town...

I have Oberserved myself!!!

Okay, I have been very productive, well for me. I have re-mounted my amp, and bass adjuster, now they don't go flying whenever I turn a corner or hit my brakes :O. Speaking of brakes they actually failed me last night. I went to slam on them, to avoid hitting someone and yea I was better off just swarving to miss the guy. No damage done to my POS or the other guy.

I have done most of my homework and it is not even sunday :).

Last night I went out and saw the Buggyman. It was surpisingly good. The ending was a little weak, however. I did jump once, and that is good, because I am verutally desensitzed.

However my productivity, has slowed up a little. I need to clean my bloody room, and finsh my two hundered math problems. I just don't have any ambishen, right now.

I have however spent the moajority of my time looking for jobs. To fill you all in there aren't any in the city of Saginaw. If there is the top pay is about 7.00 per hour and that is after years of work. I have almost swallowed my pride and gone back to the Theatre, then it hit me I do not want to make that place a carrer, so I am not going back. Well I geuss I am gonna go and finsh my homework. Later!!!!!!!!

Growing Up, and the Pros and Cons!

Well, as we grow we get more freedoms, and responsabilties. Which is good and bad, atleast for me. I paid my taxes and I made a considerable less amount of money in 04 then 03, but I am getting a lot of money back from Uncle Sam, not enough to catch me up however. It is still more then what I got for the last two years. With my debt raising and my account diveing I think this will motavate me to get a job and then a second job. I am not totally broke but the bills are do and I have enough to last through next month. So I am now looking for a job, with Delta's help and then hoping that I can get hired from the job fare or
Disney. Crossing my fingers here but I hope, to be working by March debt free in April and have a savings account again in june through Auggust. Then I will be able to move out, maybe a little sooner then then.

Annoying Songs that Will Not Die, cuz they Are stuck in my head!!!

Well folks, the folds of my brain are at it again. From around 9 o'clock last night thru today, I have had a number of songs stuck in my little head. 1.) I want to run away now, by Durand Durand. 2) Facts of Life, theme song. 3) Sex and Candy, forgot who sang it. 4) Who Shot the sheriff, neither one I can't remmeber who sings. 5) Red Light Special TLC. 6) Theme song from Malcom in The Middle. 5) Water Falls TLC, 6) The Dope Show Marilyn Masson. This is the funny thing about all of these song I have not heard them for a long time. Further more, I barely like two of the songs on here, and I CAN NOT STAND THE FACTS OF LIFE, show nor the theme song. It is just cruel to have to hear these songs playing and playing in my head, especially seeing how some of them are just the first two or three lines in the song. For example I shot the sheriff, but I did not shoot the Deputy. Now say that twenty times today and you just migtht feel my pain. If that fails, sing the Facts of life theme song, you will want to throw yourself out of a window and hope to land on as many people you can before hitting the pavement. I know I want too. If anyone has any ideas, or names of songs that will not make me want to plumbit to my death please let me know ASAP. One more song just entered my head, Redneck Women by Grentchen Wilson, I think.

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Normally when one of my friends are faced with a lost I can either relate, or be very sympathetic, just not this time. I want to say that this person isn't getting a lot of my sympathy because, the man who died was 83 years old. That was a long life. I don't think that there is anything wrong with me but I feel bad because I don't feel worse. Does that make any sense, to you all? To be a good friend, I am going to go to the funeral home, give my condolences and stay a little bit of time. Should I feel worse, then what I do? This is freaking me out man.....
This hole thing has gotten to me, and now I ask what do you believe is the after life like, if there is one.
According to the Butist (sp) you re-live your life until you get it perfect, then you are reincanatied into another living creature. Then some are believers have a Heaven. I would like to think that if there is an afterlife, and it is filled with people from your family, and past freinds. I do not like the idea that when you die you just stay in a darkness, and you see only what is around you. If this is true I think I would like to be creamatied and have my ashes spread throughout the water, europe and some left with my famil, so that I can see over them forever. So if I were to die tommorow will you see to it that I am creamted and that my ashes are sperad in the oceans, just the oceans. With my luck, my ashes would be swept up into a dustpan and dumped in a trashcan. Viewing a dumpsite for the rest of time, is not on my prioity list. Is it anyones dream to see that forever?