I have been wondering where my life is going. As I sit here looking at my life I want to know where it will take me. I am ready to leave the nest (as it were), but I think that when I leave I will make ripples. Thus far my friends have made leaps, but I want to make leaps and bounds. I don't mean to sound as if I want to out do my friends I just want to go a little further.. I am looking at schools on line and I see some great ones. This is my problem...

I could go, but I would get home sick. ( for what I dunno, a drunk step-dad, dead end job, hmmm.)

I know I would miss my friends, because in the last few months they have been everything to me. I know as of late I have kinda been ditching you guys, but I am sorry.

I geuss i have no reason to bitch... Well I geuss I am gonna set it in stone. I am applying to Orlando Univ. If they take me then I will be off to Florida and finish up school. If they don't then I will go to SVSU and take my last two semsters aboard. Night.

More of my friends need to get text messaging. And I think I am over drinking for a while.........

I have so much to say and no time to say. Well I have the time, but I fear I can't put all the feelings and emotions together just by a few words. I fit so many catagories that it is rather confusing. I am happy, sad, verage of crying, but smiling all the time, depperessed, but repressing, docile, but not. I have never felt so many emotions at once before. This will be my last post for a while..................................

If anyone can tell me how to deal with feelings of love, and death please let me know. I want to tell some one I want them more then I have let on but they don't want to go in that direction. They are atracted to me but don't know about what they want to do...... GOD IS A WOMAN AND HATES ME.......

I hope you all find as much humor in this as I did.


Cancer-"Side involvements with people you know socially could work out advantageously for you. Out of a casual conversation with a pal, a connection for mutual benefits may be discovered."

Capricorn- "Associates could be far more relaxed than usual, providing you an opportunity to treat them more like pals than merely commercial contacts. Doing so will greatly strengthen your allance."

Hmm. The person (I think I want to be with) has a very simular "horscope" as me. Now if I put a lot of stock into it I would say this would be promiseing, but I don't so it's just funny.

P.s.

I am Cancer and the person is Capricorn.