WHO THE HELL IS JMR?

I have no clue who this is so let me know!

Okay This Is My Promies For 05!

I was cleaning my room and I sumbled on my drivers liscnce, wow I still have my licnce, and I realized that I have gained some weight in the past three almost four years since I recived my drivers licince. Like soo soo many people I want to take it off; seeing how many diets fail. I refuse to diet, so I am going to get off the coach and lock up the keg, fridge and junk food cupboard, and exercise, both my mind and my body. I have been reading a lot lately and I like it, simply cuz a book doesn't tell you of the death and crime of now it gives us a fake one, and I like that. So in four years I have gain twenty pounds and I want to losse atleast thrityfive. that will bring me close to the ideal weight for my height.
No pop.
No carbs.
No chips. and so on and so on. Wish me luck! I'm gonna need it, later for now!

Should I or Shouldn't I?

I finished "Angela's Ashes" and "T'is" both memiors and autobigorphies. I was thinking if I wrote a book about my life, from start to now, would anyone read it? I have the start planned out, but how could I do it? My father leaving, way, before I was born the way my grandfather left my mother, the way my grandmother didn't raise my mother, and my IDIOIT step-father. If I write a book I have the begining and middle but no end, I have no end because im only 19. How ever I do feel that I have traveled far in my shoes and my shoes are going to take me even further. Yes if I wrote a book I do have a titled for it "My Promise." No it is not a working title. So I ask all who read this, should I write a book, or should I not write one?
Pleas note this is not a retorical question please leave my your opinon.

I Have No Life!

Nothing to do and no where to go. Life in this state and "town" SUCKS. Damn this layoff, if I weren't laid off I would be looking for my own place right now. I have decided that ,even though it is recomned that I stay at Delta for another four semsters, I am not. I am going to find a school in 1. Californa 2. Arizona 3. Flordia 4. Ohio 5. ANY SCHOOOL OUT SIDE OF THIS SHIT HOLE PLACE. I know this sounds like im just bitching about everything, I am, I have decided that the farther away I am, the better my life will change. I am hopeing that the memories will stay dormate and won't be brought up to be remebered any more. Lets see if I am right, however with my luck, I will have a lot of time to sit and think and the memories will be bright back up. So I geuss I need to be moving on and seek professional help, maybe I can get some good drugs from the "Proffesional" later!

I Hate Most of My Memories!

Looking back at the first couple of years living here, really sucked. We were truly white trash. Christmas sucked, and the attidude of my Step-father did not help at all. If I chose not to think of the past will I truley forget it? Well from what I have learned in Psych, I really can not forget memories, so what am I to do? I do not like my past and thinking about it kind of brings me down. As I notice through out life people with a bad past, turns out to be an Acohlic. I for one do not wish to go down that path, I have seen that past and it is not a promising one. Drink, get mean , treat people like garbage, and jail time. So I am not saying that I will never drink, but what I am saying is that I will never chose a life that revolves around the "Drink".

Sincerly,

Ryan Ruiz de Castilla.

Shaun of the Dead!

Well I have decided that Shaun of the dead is fucking great! It has death, comedy, and swearing. I say everyone should go and see this movie, or else. WEll for those of whom who dont know I have been laid off for the next two months. Well, I have a lot of time and no cash so if anybody can think of something to do hit me up.

Shaun of the Dead!

Well I have decided that Shaun of the dead is fucking great! It has death, comedy, and swearing. I say everyone should go and see this movie, or else. WEll for those of whom who dont know I have been laid off for the next two months. Well, I have a lot of time and no cash so if anybody can think of something to do hit me up.

ERRERRR!

So much to do and so much procastion..

Yes, I have homework to do, test to study for and I don't care I know all my grades and I will be passing with at least a C, after I fail my finials that is. Ya know I never really cared about my studies, we all know this to be true. I want to just shut down on my mental thinking and give my mind a rest, I can' t because I have so much to do and so little time to do it in. Oh well then I geuss with only one more day of school left till x-mass break, I dont care. I am still looking for a second job for xmass break, any ideas let me know.

P.S
I HATE BLUE GRASS MUSIC, IT GIVES ME A HEDACHE LIKE YOU WOULDN'T BELEAVE.

You Are the Individualist

4 You are sensitive and intuitive, with others and yourself. You are creative and dreamy... plus dramatic and unpredictable. You're emotionally honest, real, and easily hurt. Totally expressive, others always know exactly how you feel.

What number are you?

Wow I never Knew!!

2 Comments:
Jeff said...
"Well, not only would I get even.... but I can't be outdone by that sick fuck!I would go to his/her house (ex-wife anyone?) and tie that person to a chair. After the killer is secured in an upright position, I will punish the killer for hurting my "feelings." Castration would come first (or clitoris removal). I would then torture, search, and google until I knew the names, address numbers, and even hobbies of the family members. Then I would abduct, rape, and castrate (or remove a clitoris) the family as well. Finally. I will burn many houses down, and attack thumbscrews. After all fingers are broken (and toes), I would break some jaws, crack some heads, and maybe even pull a "Resevoir Dogs" on a few. Finally, I will slow cook them in a vat.... and feet it to the homeless.I hate those sick fucks.Anyhoo, I have a new blog (my second one). I just made it and linked you. I'm at www.sheepshirts.com/dminorJeff, Lord of the Universe (who shall rule with an iron fist covered in acid of rightous smiting)."
5:50 AM
Rachel said...
"...Wow, Jeff. I think you went too far with that one."

Hmm I thought Rachel would be shocked, I used a biblical line in my journal. Hmm maybe she didn't read all of it????? Nah she is, proably just in shocked!
11:35 AM

Put your self in these shoes!

okay, I was watching T.V the other night and a guy came in and killed the family on TV. The guy was so mad, he got revange, and massacured the guy. I mean flat out tourtured him cut fingures off, toes off, and cut other body parts as well. And it got me thinking what would I do if I ever found myself in a simulair situation? (God forbiding of course.)

Well I was thinking, that would use the amount of bullets, or same kind of kneif that he/she used to kill my people. I would not make them suffer any worse then what my people did. But then what would I do if I got caught. What kind of people would convict me for getting even, then it hit me I would only do this if the American judical system failed me. Would this still count as Premeditated murder, and would you do the same if someone harmed one of your love ones?
"An eye for an eye!"


The criminal death of a fetus is a misdemeanor, not murder.
Exodus 21:22-25
When men strive together, and hurt a woman with child, so that there is a miscarriage, and yet no harm follows, the one who hurt her shall be fined, according as the woman's husband shall lay upon him; and he shall pay as the judges determine. If any harm follows, then you shall give life for life, eye for eye, tooth for tooth, hand for hand, foot for foot, burn for burn, wound for wound, stripe for stripe.

Does that fall within that concept?