Okay, this can and mostly will only happen to me. The following events are true word-for-word.

1) I had two jobs and going to school, not full time, but more then parttime. I stopped going to school in December, quite my job then three months later quite my other job. I spent a total of one week unemployeed. I had a interview at Meijer they then called me the day of my interview and said I start Thursday at 10am.

2) Block buster calls wanting to interview me. I go Friday at 2pm (It was suppose to be tomorrow at 1.) In the voice mail the lady left me she said "she wants me to accept the interview."

3) I go from two jobs and school to nothing then to two jobs and school all over again.

I have further decided I NEED A MOTHER FUCKIN VACATION. I will have my debt controlable in June. And have already told Meijer I will need a coupld of days off in July around my b-day. I figure, now, that the vast majority of my friends are working and over the age of 21 we could go to LAS VEGAS. I fiugre what the hell, why can't we go to a city where it is legal to get so tore up and almost normal to get married at the same time. And if Jeff comes he'll be able to kill the hooker of his choice and if Dan wants we can brury Chris out there as well.

Okay, I have a lot to say and I either don't want to say it or I don't know were to begin. Still, in love, yeah. We are doin' better then well, but we do have our moments. I think I screwed up big time. The people who read this know that, I don't handle death well. I have to blame it on the fact that I have never had any one, extremly, close to me pass on. Yes, I know a grandmother passed-away this time last year. But, in all honesty I have never really thought about lossing someone close to me. I know we all die and I think about death more then a little bit. I see through my, love, how I am proally going to act; the same way he is when my grandmother passess (but for him his grandfather passed). The only thing is that I would proally be tring to control more of everything, but that's me (the control freak).
I see that love of mine hurting so much, but I don't know what to do.

Still out of work, but my family is not really rushing me. They, gave me till June to find work. My cousin think I might work for GM or something along those lines this summer. Here's hoping.

Hey, I am thinking about haveing a painting party one of these days. I will have pizza, snacks, beer, liquor, and other things that people want. I will have paint and all those things too. Dress in grubs.

FUUUCK!



I should have never of gotten up this morining. First off I almost died going to work my breaks went out. Then, on my way to get a different job my ball joint broke (again). Then, my machanic tells me I need powersteering, shocks, breaks, and a couple other things that don't need fixin' right now. My Mom is giving me the money for it. So on my way home, my phone dies. Verizon takes care of it no problem. I walk out of the store and have a flat tire. No big; I put air in my tire and it's all good. I get home it's flat again, my rim is bent. I thought to myself "well the rims were cheap maybe I can get one for cheap." I ate those words. 136 dollars for one rim. I was like what? I didn't pay 500 for rims and tires. So fuck fuck fuck fuck. I can drive on my dount for a spell, but I mean shit what else could go wrong. I want my mommy....

I would rather have my love though.

Well the job out look is getting better by the day. I have a feeling I will be employeed by the end of next week. I would perfer the end of this week, but I won't hold my breathe. For those of you who care I have been out of the loop the last five days, becuase of pnemonia (I blame Chris). I have wierd feeling that I am loosing control of my life. I am deeply in love, but fear that I will lose this love if I don't gain control again. Thus why I am going to shower, shave, and GET A MOTHER FUCKIN JOB!!