So help me god.
I am going to make myself over. I am going to get a new job, get into shape and not allow myself to be used any more. I am so tired of people that use people for personal gain. If you think this is about you then either you've used/use people or me. I have to say I am not broken hearted just hurt that things went the way they did. Yes, signs were there and they told the truth and when grandma says something you need to know that's the truth. People come and go, but true friends stay with you. Despite all the things I've been through this feels like the worse. Maybe, we need to talk maybe not all I know is that I am not going to let this shit get me down anymore. I'm done. My heart is now calis to these things. I will survive, but can you say the same? This new year will bring so much happiness I can't wait. I'm done with the users.

I'm done. I am so out of this state. I am not meant to live here. I am not meant for happiness here. I will be miserable for life if I were to be doomed to stay here any longer than I have to.