Okay, this has been an odd day. First off, I got up went to scholl, normal day there. Secondly, I went home and my machanic called my mom and told her that my car needed Shocks, struits, brake pads, battery, tires, and some other shit. Then, I paid off a couple cards saving me there. My mom then bribed me to go to either SVSU or CMU with a Sony Vivo. Oh yea, I am selling my car. I will not sell it repaired nor will I sell it to friends. Well Thats all ttyl!!!

Okay, I have to tell you all this story of a body of mine at work. He has his car stole in broad daylight, as his neighbor watched, had his mom kick him out of the house, police finding his car and have it gutted like a deer, and wake up this morning with apendix problems. And I thought my day was shit.

Okay, I went to work this morning thinking I could clock in eairly and leave eairly. Well, let me tell you it didn't work out that way. First off, I walk in seeing that I have five faxes waiting for me (shit!). PAYROLL IS TOO HIGH! CUT BACK CUT BACK! then the next four were more yelling threatening us with write ups and all that fun shit. Then, cutting some 50 hours off of one day. Then getting busy and twisting my side. Let me tell you. I walked to the other end of the Consseion stand to get something and got widged between the popper and three other people. Forcing me to leave my waist down stright and then twisting my torso. AS i start to twist I get wedged even further then my body intended to go and all you could hear is my back cracking, OWE! Finshed with my customers and went and sat in the office and took three IB'S.

On a very happy note, I found a store to carry my worlds favorite ice cream "Blue Moon." Yummmmm! Night all!

To the person that has pissed me off to no end. I have deleted you from my phone, aim and all other forms of comuincation in the 21st century. I have no need and no room for people that want to play games. I would rather to know a totally honest person then a dishonest person as you are. If I never see you again it will be to soon. I have to deal with you until the 5th of Septemeber then I never have to see you again. If you see me in public don't acknowlege me and I will do the same. If you acknowlege me I will hit you. Not a pussy as bitch slap, but a right hook. So, if I were you I would choose "A". I do have a mean right hook. So to you sir here is a big FUCK OFF YOU LYING SON OF A BITCH!!!!! :0

Killings need to be legalized. I need to drink. Thank god I am going to the bar on Thursday.

I want to post, but I have nothing to say. .......................................................

Okay, I am use to waking in the moring with swollen body parts, but this is the oddest one yet. I get up do my thing in the morning, and I will be damned if my thumb was not swollen. I don't remeber getting stung in the thumb. I have no clue what this is about but it HURTS.

Some one tell me the point! If one can tell me the point of putting one foot in front of the other and moving on tell me. Cuz, I sure as shit don't know. I am growing bored of lifes rollercosters. I often think that I am ready to find my mate get married and die. Then the youthful part of me kicks in and says, "What?!" You get married have kids (not certain I want them) and have no fun. I am happy I am not sad, please don't read this as me being sad, it's just me thinking. What is the point of getting married sleeping with one person forever. It doesn't sound fun at all. I really don't think that is gods will for us. Why, would we have to do that. There has to be something we are missing. I get we are still paying for the sins of Adam and Eve. Jesus lost his life for our sins. Are we entering a new era of salvation (or in our case re-salvation). We have people wanting to kill us because we have freedoms they don't? That's not right. That reminds me of the old saying "You pay for the mistakes of one person" basicly it takes one bad person to fuck it up for the rest. I for one am tired of paying for others fuckups. I want to pay for my own. All this shit of the son pays for the mistakes of the Father is crap. It is time we pull up our pants and take responsablity for ourselves. I am also dieing to know who said Jesus is our lord?

Break down time. (from the way I see it)

Jesus is the son of God. God create everything. Jesus might of had powers to heal or he was a Doctor and new what herbs to put together to help heal ( I am confident that if the church knows they won't tell. Also, they will pay a lot of money to keep it quite.) As, all my friends know I don't believe what the churches say. I go a different path. I am breaking it down here.

Virgin Marry? Sure.
God? Yes.
Jesus? Yes.
Jesus having powers? Maybe.
Jesus being Gods son? Why not.
God forgiving killers, rapist, moldsters? NO, thats why there's Hell on earth.

Ways to stay out of Hell. Live in HARMONY with all, fill your self with not love nor HATERED. Treat people the way you want to be treated. Follow the rules set fourth and you will have your salvation at the end of your life! Ramblings of Ryan.

Should I start the next church? Tom Cruise has his.

Somebody, asked me today "Why do you want to leave?" My response was why would I want to stay? I have an assoicates and can't find a job paying more then 7 dollars per hour. Then the other jobs pays 8.5 per hour but it's only 20 hrs a week. Either way, both jobs pay shit. When I am in Flordia I will be able to make a lot more money. I mean a sub can make up to 20 K a year. Here, I can make only 12-15 per year. Then, when I have a Masters I will only make 32 starting and finish at around 55. Down there I can start out at 32 but end up make close to 65 per year. In the long run I will be better off getting the hell out of this state. I have no problem with the thought of leaving Michigan. I have a problem with leaving my friends, and mom and cousins. I know I will have there support, because I will be bettering myself and everyone gives support when one is attepmting to better thereselves. I geuss my biggest fear is that I won't make that many friends, but I can always come home to hang with them. Plus you always have friends when you go and drink LOL! Well I have posted long enough!


P.s
I am having a Halloween party here, and maybe a New Years Party (sorry Jeff I know that's your day, but my cousin wants to Host one.)

Why!?!?


When somebody calls you, and you send them right to voice mail, they decide to hang up and call you three more time until you just hang up on them. Then they e-mail asking what's wrong. How, do you tell them to go away. You kind of want to be friends with them, but they annoy you so much that you want to hit them. People suck ass.!!!!!

Lately, all I have wanted to do is scream and hit things. I haven't felt these feelings in a while. I feel that my life is sprialing into shit. I am hoping and praying that I can get back into the school this year. This is my vow, I will not stay in Michigan beyond June. Yes, I am planing to follow suit with some people we have went to school with, but only for a few years. I want to live in Flordia, then Californa. I have not yet decided where I want to go after that. I am so frustrated and don't know why.

It took a lot of courage for me to admit to myself that I was attracted to both ( you all know what I mean), now I find myself attracted to nothing. I still flirt ,a little, but nobody is really get my motor going (allow me to be a little corny). I don't know, I don't think it's deprission. I usually know right off the bat when I am depressed. I think it's just pure bordem. Not with my friends, but with Michigan.

I had a tooth filled that lost it's filling in May or March can't remeber which. Now, the dentist says I might need to see a specialist. They might want to take the tooth or do a rootcannal. DAMNIT. Nothing, can be simple for me. Sorry, I didn't mean to make three paragraphs about nothing I just felt like I needed to get some things strightened out or less crooked in my case. Well, talk at yeah all later.

How can you say you're a friend when you go behind my back and spread lies. Now you wonder why I am mad at you. What gives you the balls to act like you did nothing wrong when you have toyed and spread lies about me. Now, because of you I can lose my job. You're an ass. If I didn't have to work with you I would tell you off. And for the women that is spreading the lies I hope you get yours. If you are mad at me because I got the job you wanted tough shit. They choose the one with the better "customer service skills". And to think I graduated High school two years ago. If you would have told me that I would be living High School all over again at work I would call you a crazy whore....