I have been feeling a little down and am not sure why. I read some where that if you clean up your surroundings that might help you feel better (not that I live in complete filth, but I geuss my car and room could use a good cleaning). I need to find a night job just for sanity purposses. I actually feel help in my realtionship. I have never been happy to hear from someone on a daily bases. That is saying a lot for me. I mean my own mother gets on my last nerves every now and then. I need to do something that doesn't cost me a lot of money. On another note I am caught up on my bills; now if I can just pay off my last two cards off I will be just fine. bye all.

Back from Chicago.

I had fun... Jeff and I had a 92.50 dollars bar tab our first night. Then midnight we bought Rachel a Bombcicle. Were after that we went to T.G.I.F'S for a snack. Our, waiter was gordon and French, and GAY. He really, reminded me of Lyrch from the Adam's family. Then we cliberated her birthday. I took it eaisy cuz of my anckle. I liked it I proally would have liked it more if it weren't so damn cold. Kraig wants to go so, we might go this summer or something.

I have done the impossible two things for me.

I have been involved for about two almost three months. I have also gotten so cheap that I have put over 30,00 miles on my brakes. I am really anal about car repairs. Had a friend check it out and all i need are front pads. Pads are like 25 dollars. So for about 75 dollars, 25 for brakes and 50 to buy beer, smokes, and food. That still beats 200 dollars for a brake job. Yay me. Well I have to get in the shower and pick of my love from his place. I love haveing somone like him in my life.

P.s.

Rachel I will have the rest of your money for you on friday I think.

Where has all the parenting gone?

They put T.V. shows on showing the disobeidant little children. Who in there right mind would let a child tell them what to do or act in such a mannor. Let me tell you if my child ever acted out in such a mannor there ass would be red for a week. I hate the fact that discapline in the family is wrong. I think a lot of old fashioned ways are good. I don't think a child should be beaten with a belt. A bare hand across the butt is more then enough. Now, I don't want to hear that in todays world parent hate punishing there kids, because they both have to work 40 plus hours aweek to mantain a descent living. My mom was a single mother, worked two or more jobs. When I acted out I would either recive a spanking, or she would threaten me. I think I turned out pretty okay.

Now, for you pre-teens and teens who think you're grown. You're not. You should be thankful that teachers can't spank or hit a student, I know many students at the school I went to and work at who would have greatly needed it. If I would have acted like that when I was in that age, all the privilages that were given to me would have been taken away.

I must say thank you for raising me the way you did mom.