I am truly starting to hate the holidays. I think it might be my family. We're to opinionated to be couped up inside with all of us. I actually got into an argument with my Aunt. I never argue with anyone other than my mother and grandmother. People just piss me off to no end. I am so the type of person that will UPS my families gifts to them. I just don't see why we have to spend every holiday together. If I saw you on Thanksgiving and you were healthy then I can wait till January to see you next time.

In my opinion when you add stress+family+not feeling well= LOT'S OF YELLING!!!! I wish people would mind there own business and keep out of mine if I'm not breaking the law then I'm okay. I can't wait till the end of this semester.

This is probably going to be the worse one ever. I am looking at academic probation. I will have to get nothing less then 2.5 to stay in school. They HAVEN'T told me this, but I am preparing myself for it. I just struck out this term and don't understand it. I think it might be the stress of not making money and the whole depression thing. I am officially over that if anybody cares to know. I have decided that I need to love myself, before I can love another.

I know it's extremely early to be thinking about the goals for next year, but here is the roughest of rough drafts I can put together.

1) MY OWN PLACE (Achieved I move in May.)
2) Get a good job. (By good I don't mean more then minim wage, but at least 30hrs/per/w)
3)Travel. (Las Vegas for spring break. March 3-6 ish)
4) New Car.
5) Savings account
6) Get into shape. ( This was placed here on purpose. I say it every year and every year I lose 10lbs and gain it back. With my own place I will buy the food I need to eat to lose more than ten lbs and did I mention that I am going to use the CMU gym)
7) Be happy.
8) Be a better friend. I have noticed that I always turn the subject around I think I am giving advice, but I don't think it is taken that way.
9) Spend more time with people and less time with me. I am the only one that can play my emotions and I play them like a fiddle.
10) And just have fun.

If you would like to add an adventures to mine let me know via myspace. I am attempting to composite a list of places I haven't been and places I have been to and want to see more of. I know I can drag Rachel. Let me know.

"I'll call you tomorrow."

I hate that fucking line. I expect it out of someone who I just meet, but not from people that I've known for a while. I say this, cuz I feel like I am being ignored. This person and I had plans I canceled cuz my cousins needed a sitter. Family comes first to me. No problem. I call them later. "I'm bussy call you tomorrow." I send text message yesterday at ten pm. Call me. No response. Send them a message this morning. Getting conerned. No response. Hmm, the motherfucker is ignoring me and now I'm pissed. Thought we were gonna do something last night so I didn't make any plans. I spent the night at home waiting on a call. I don't know what to do. What really melts my butter is the fact that it feels like I am being ignored. I have done nothing to recive this negitve treatment. I really hate people. I think I am moving to MTP in May. I have to fill out some paper work but it might work out that way. go me.

Hi all. Well I don't get it. I am turning into Anna; maybe even surpassing her. I just can't say no to sex. Every time I am chatting with friends online one thing leads to another and we end up having intercourse. I don't know why I can't say no but it feels so good just to have sex. Granted one of us is usually walking kind of funny the next day or so, but we both have smiles on our faces.

I found out something even more interesting last night. This proves I am right about crazy people being drawn to our little click. it must be, because we're all a little crazy??? Well any who here is the news. Corey ( Rachel's former SVSU roommate) has been hospitalize. I was talking to a well known source about this and it's true. "What happened was she just snapped." the source tells me. "She started hanging around every one here and creped out some of the customers and well she got kicked out of the bar." Checking her last logins this maybe be true. However, if it is true this proves to me that the mentally ill are drawn to us. Here is my proposal lets all change our majors and be shrinks. The crazies are gonna find us no matter what. If you have proof that this story is NOT true then please let me know and I will erase it till then the story stays.