I have a fear.

My fear is that I will die younger than expected.
Not of nature, but of my own doing.
I have told myself that when my glacuma gets worse and I lose my eye sight my life will end.
I am not the type of person that can live as a dependent.
Not being able to see will not help.
But if the meds do what they are suppose to and then the surgery releases the presure I should be fine.
If that is true then why the hell am I so scared? if all these things are to make be better and keep my eyesight I should be okay. Why do I feel so bad???????

Yuke!

I FEEL LIKE DEATH, AND I LOOK THE PART TO BOOT. Seven more days until I am done with the Movie bussiness. If I did not know any better I swear I was pregant. I have motion sick, head achey, and I HAVE AN ODD APPITE. Well, talk to you all later.

HI!

This is the longest amount of time I have kept a job, since senior year in High school. This year is looking very promiseing. I am currently hopping that they don't promte me at GKC for the simple fact that I would like to cut my hours and go down to seanal help. I can't do two jobs and school full time. I proally could if they were normal hours not 20 19 hours at Webber on Mondays, Wedensdays, Fridays, 20 hours at GKC Friday, Saturday, Sunday and the occisonal Wedensday shift. Not to menichen school from 8:30-4 on Tuesday and Thursday. I have to admit the money is great $400 a pay check fits in my pocket so nicley.

I have paid off all but 600$$ of my credit cards. Yeah for me! Now when I get the mail I don't hear "Bills, bills, bills" by Destinies Child. ( I know that was a little gay.) Well, I must go and finsh my homework I have socialology stuff to finsh and yes I did drop my photography class.


_Good Night, Good luck and God Speed to all, except Bush.


P.S

I geuss Cheny's not the smart one he shot someone. HMMM so where are the brains in this administration?????