Looking forward to the "White Strips" tonight. Not quite sure why, I don't perticularly like the white strips ( I use it correct once, that's all you get.)
Really looking forward to Anna's Halloween party. Going to it as Jack Sparrow, as you all know. Miss. Rachel is doing my makeup, tattoo, and loaning me some of her hair, for my beard, perverts!
Ummm. I thought I had more to say about random shit in my life. I was wrong, now wasn't I???? Well this is my 95 update. 5 more and I will have a 100. Leaving now talk to you all later.
Friday, September 30, 2005
Friday, September 23, 2005
Screaming on the inside!
I am DEPRESSED! This time, however, it is worse then ever before. My independence is shrinking. I have to borrow money to make my car payment next month. I, almost, hate life. Conetemplating!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I have an idea on what my book will be about when I start writing is unknown.
I have an idea on what my book will be about when I start writing is unknown.
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
Some one Asked Me!
Some one asked me what my dreams and hopes are for the futrue?
I had no idea how to answer that question. I want a career, family, and a home, but I want more. I want people to know who I am and what I did. I know I really don't care for the idea of having to walk down the isle and saying " I do", when in reality I proably don't. I doubt that I would like to get devorced just because I don't like to share. Not that I am selfish ( my friends all know that I would give the shirt off my back to help them out) I just don't like the idea of shareing my kids, If any at all. I also look down at the idea of spliting my assest in half because I don't care for this person anymore. I do like the idea of growing old with somebody and to have somebody there to travel with me. I mean I can have a home, kids, career and more, but do I need to get married. Espcially if you add in the fact that I don't belive in true love. "Love is an abcess that forms in the heart and burst in the ass." Quote from my great-great-grandmother, I think. I mean if I choose to have kids I can adopt. I mean I was raised by a single parent for the most of my life and I turned out just fine. I think I feel this way because I have yet to see a marriage work from beginging to death. I will say this marriage has its up and downs but can anyone tell me the real point behind it. Many people get married because they are pregent, scared of being alone, money, I mean the list goes on and on. But why do so many people get married and devorced and married agin. To me it is pointless but to each there own I geuss.
To answer the question, I want my career first, to educate people, and own my own business, have a home, and then kids. I really don't see a wife in the picture until I am old. I don't think I am wrong to say this or think it. It is the way I want my life to be and the way I need it to be. Granted I won't have somebody else to help me out with problems but I will have family and friends, right? Well I am off to bed to better comtemplate my life and ambishins and such. Let me know what you think.
I had no idea how to answer that question. I want a career, family, and a home, but I want more. I want people to know who I am and what I did. I know I really don't care for the idea of having to walk down the isle and saying " I do", when in reality I proably don't. I doubt that I would like to get devorced just because I don't like to share. Not that I am selfish ( my friends all know that I would give the shirt off my back to help them out) I just don't like the idea of shareing my kids, If any at all. I also look down at the idea of spliting my assest in half because I don't care for this person anymore. I do like the idea of growing old with somebody and to have somebody there to travel with me. I mean I can have a home, kids, career and more, but do I need to get married. Espcially if you add in the fact that I don't belive in true love. "Love is an abcess that forms in the heart and burst in the ass." Quote from my great-great-grandmother, I think. I mean if I choose to have kids I can adopt. I mean I was raised by a single parent for the most of my life and I turned out just fine. I think I feel this way because I have yet to see a marriage work from beginging to death. I will say this marriage has its up and downs but can anyone tell me the real point behind it. Many people get married because they are pregent, scared of being alone, money, I mean the list goes on and on. But why do so many people get married and devorced and married agin. To me it is pointless but to each there own I geuss.
To answer the question, I want my career first, to educate people, and own my own business, have a home, and then kids. I really don't see a wife in the picture until I am old. I don't think I am wrong to say this or think it. It is the way I want my life to be and the way I need it to be. Granted I won't have somebody else to help me out with problems but I will have family and friends, right? Well I am off to bed to better comtemplate my life and ambishins and such. Let me know what you think.
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