Does any one ever feel like there's a little guy (women) in the back of your headfighting sanity and insanity? I feel as if the one of the little people in the my head is losing the fight for sanity. I just wonder how many more sane years I have left. I wonder if I will be one of those old farts that walk around flipiing the bird to kids, and telling other people just to plain old "fuck off." I would like atleast fourty or fifty years left before I am that to far gone. Well I am off to a Christmas party.

I think I've been hanging out at the bar to much. I don't drink that much, but I have to start getting to bed eairler I have to hang on to my tutoring job atleast till I find another one. I am so happy to be done with the shit hole at the end of the week.

I don't get it.

Seriously, what is your problem with me, you didnt like me from the start, but yet you come with Rachel and Dan to celebrate my birthday. Im just kinda curious. You seem really negative about things and you never really got to know me personally so why hate. Anyway, Im not scared of what you think. But even Rachel has invited me to her birthday party at her new apartment. So, what do you have to say about that. Im not being a bitch either, im just telling you the truth. Pam

Why me. Well this was my response.

I don't like you for many reason. I don't like what you did to Jeff. That is enough for me to not like a person. Plus, I don't think you get what it means to be Christian. Christians have deep moral control. Which you have proven time and time again you don't have. And Rachel is free to invite you to anything she wants. I plan on being at her bday party too. But I won't go out of my way to make you feel welcomed towards me nor will I be an ass to you out of RESPECT for Rachel. However, if I see you in public I shan't be aknowlegding you in any way. I hope this will get a point made to you. The circle of friends that I have know how I feel and they have approved my attitude. If you don't like it tough


Since, when do I have to explain myself to people can't I just not like somebody any more. I mean really we all are in the real world. I don't like you I don't like you. GOD

It appears that CMU has lowered there standards. I will be attending this fall. That means I will be commuting between Saginaw and Mount Pleasent. Kraig and I still seem to be getting along great. I can't help but wonder if I like him more he likes me. Then on the other hand I can't help, but wonder if he likes me more. I really want this to work. This Sunday will mark a total of 14 days of knowing eachother. That makes me happy. In other news. I am buying a Jeep in Feb. My mom has requested that I get one for the snow next year. I found one that I love, but alas it is in Philly. Anybody wanna join me? I plan on flying there and driving back.