Hi, I'm never at a lost for words; this we all know. For the first time, I am at a lost. I have alll the emotions running through me right now and I don't know how to express them. My personal and proffesional lives are all messed up. I hate my job, I just feel like there are a couple of people that are out to get me. For example a quote from a note from one person. "Get with Dan. and RE-LEARN HOW TO DO APS." I put a twin check on that film and I forgot I was not to do that. Simple mistake right? and then she goes on and says "APS doesn't need to have the paper colbrated." I felt like say hey, I've only been here for about two months. Not half way to my pentition like you. I didn't. Then the woman who was to be covering my department did nothing. Everything, the boss wanted her to do plus her normal daily duties were left for me. 8.5 hours she did nothing. Hmm that say volumes about her. So, I am ready to pack it all in. I know I can't do photo, I hole heartly believe that is, because of my Dislaxia. (to many steps for me to follow). Conteplating moving to MTP. I don't want to leave my boyfriend and friends, but I might. 500 miles a week on my car is a lot (that is just what I drive to and from school.) I have a lot of stuff on my plate and it makes me ill. You should know I cryed while I wrote this in hopes that my typing would stall the tears, but alas the didn't. This is my personal hell I don't think I will be getting out of it anytime soon. I just want everything in my life to make me happy. It seems like when one thing makes me happy others fail to. Lately, everything just seems to be failing. Somethings gotta give.

Okay, so I am paying my car off this month via student loans. I would like to buy a 1987 Corvette. Mind you, I am keeping the Avenger. Would that be a little bit or a lot gay? I do live in Michigan...

Is it flattery or envy if someone you know buys, a car just like yours? One difference though, it's a different color.

I feel better now. Kraig and I had a talk about how we were feeling and turns out we both feel the same way. That helped a lot. The best part of the whole thing is that we didn't break up. We talked and started to work on our problems. So hopefully this will help on stay together and help us last a lot longer then what we both thought might of happened tonight.