I am truly starting to hate the holidays. I think it might be my family. We're to opinionated to be couped up inside with all of us. I actually got into an argument with my Aunt. I never argue with anyone other than my mother and grandmother. People just piss me off to no end. I am so the type of person that will UPS my families gifts to them. I just don't see why we have to spend every holiday together. If I saw you on Thanksgiving and you were healthy then I can wait till January to see you next time.

In my opinion when you add stress+family+not feeling well= LOT'S OF YELLING!!!! I wish people would mind there own business and keep out of mine if I'm not breaking the law then I'm okay. I can't wait till the end of this semester.

This is probably going to be the worse one ever. I am looking at academic probation. I will have to get nothing less then 2.5 to stay in school. They HAVEN'T told me this, but I am preparing myself for it. I just struck out this term and don't understand it. I think it might be the stress of not making money and the whole depression thing. I am officially over that if anybody cares to know. I have decided that I need to love myself, before I can love another.

I know it's extremely early to be thinking about the goals for next year, but here is the roughest of rough drafts I can put together.

1) MY OWN PLACE (Achieved I move in May.)
2) Get a good job. (By good I don't mean more then minim wage, but at least 30hrs/per/w)
3)Travel. (Las Vegas for spring break. March 3-6 ish)
4) New Car.
5) Savings account
6) Get into shape. ( This was placed here on purpose. I say it every year and every year I lose 10lbs and gain it back. With my own place I will buy the food I need to eat to lose more than ten lbs and did I mention that I am going to use the CMU gym)
7) Be happy.
8) Be a better friend. I have noticed that I always turn the subject around I think I am giving advice, but I don't think it is taken that way.
9) Spend more time with people and less time with me. I am the only one that can play my emotions and I play them like a fiddle.
10) And just have fun.

If you would like to add an adventures to mine let me know via myspace. I am attempting to composite a list of places I haven't been and places I have been to and want to see more of. I know I can drag Rachel. Let me know.