So I'm loosing who I am. I don't get it I feel lost, but I don't want to find myself. I am finding that I enjoy being lost I am starting to realize that I have no true purpose in life. I fear that I am going to be one of those people that hit a time clock for the rest of my life and nothing exciting ever happens. Thus I feel that I have to start making the most of my life. I have deiced to find a real job one with a future and Yes pay for me to go to school. The job I am hoping for is a patient escort (get your minds out of the gutter people). Thus with this job I am planing to start taking vacations. 1) place I am going is Amsterdam 2) is Caribbean 3) France and 4) is Spain.

What else well I am kind of dating some one it's not serious at the moment but might get there. It might also stall after Saturday. I'm I so wrong to want to be alone I don't want to be with one person for the next 60 years. I would like a family but I can have one with out a Partner (just a little harder). Is it so wrong to want to be myself and not have to share that person with the world?

I am starting to realize I am the only person who really knows me and that I don't even know my closest friends like I use to. I fear I am rambling here (not like anybody is going to read this anyways). So peace out my Blogger's!!!

Ohio Now.!

So I'm down in Ohio now and I feel more relaxed; despite the fact that I have no money comming in and bill that need paying. I guess I'm just relaxed, because my Grandmother is very sure that I will get this job at the Hospital. Which that will be nice they will help me pay for school, which is going to be interesting I'm switching my major to Rad-tech.

Let's see what else....

I am getting a deal on a brand new car in Aug. I'm excited about that. Well that's all that i care to share at this moment...

Yo! T'is time for an update.

So I have decided to move to Ohio, and finish school. My cousin is going to move in with me hopefully, so I won't have to stay at my Grandmothers house for long. Thus to celebrated this momentous occasion I want to have a party. I am thinking a house warming and leaving party. I will supply some drinks. I am also thinking that I might have two one here with my MTP friends and one back home as a send-off the night before I leave. I will be expecting all my friends to join me at one of the parties.

Let's see I am working a lot and just covering bills. I am still single and looks to be keeping it that way till I move. Other than that I have nothing new to add to this. Catch ya later.