So I'm loosing who I am. I don't get it I feel lost, but I don't want to find myself. I am finding that I enjoy being lost I am starting to realize that I have no true purpose in life. I fear that I am going to be one of those people that hit a time clock for the rest of my life and nothing exciting ever happens. Thus I feel that I have to start making the most of my life. I have deiced to find a real job one with a future and Yes pay for me to go to school. The job I am hoping for is a patient escort (get your minds out of the gutter people). Thus with this job I am planing to start taking vacations. 1) place I am going is Amsterdam 2) is Caribbean 3) France and 4) is Spain.

What else well I am kind of dating some one it's not serious at the moment but might get there. It might also stall after Saturday. I'm I so wrong to want to be alone I don't want to be with one person for the next 60 years. I would like a family but I can have one with out a Partner (just a little harder). Is it so wrong to want to be myself and not have to share that person with the world?

I am starting to realize I am the only person who really knows me and that I don't even know my closest friends like I use to. I fear I am rambling here (not like anybody is going to read this anyways). So peace out my Blogger's!!!