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I am searching for a new Job. I don't know where and don't care. I am so sick of that damn place.. If I had anymore sick days, I would be using them. I should talk to my DM tomorrow when she comes in and see if I can get some more. I have to sign an affadavited stating everything I saw between two Managers and an employee. I will bet my bottom dollar they will be fired.

You entered my life like a tornado. You throw it upsidedown and broke my heart. I thought we could be what we needed for eachother. Instead what we wanted were the same things, but differently. I wanted someone to love, I geuss the fact that I like to have sex often and you don't made things worse. Everything I did was wrong, and we just ended up like oil and water. Just like a tornado I am here to pick up the pices of my life and put them in order. If this is love then I don't want it. For now anyways.

I do have to admit that I enjoyed holding you in my arms, showering with you and watching movies. I was willing to change my future plans for you, but like Romeo and Juliet we are not meant for eachother in this life. Maybe in the next one we will be...... I need my friends, a case of beer, and a nice smoke. I also need my heart put back in order.......

I have fallen and I don't want to get up. There is something about this person that has me all worked up. I think about him constantly. I love holding him, kissing him, I am so happy when he calls, looks at me. I geuss it finally happened I am in a relationship and I am happy about it. Yey for me. Well I must go thought you all should know.

I feel asif I should of died many times ago. I am a shepred with out a flock. My up is now down. My right is now left. "Our Father which art in heaven, hallowed be thy name. Thy kingdom come. Thy will be done in earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread. And forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive them that trespass against us. And lead us not into temptation. But deliver us from evil." Delivery from evil is what I need at this moment in time. I am so lost I have no clue on how to find myself. I need help but lack the ability to find it. I have laughed at the crazy people too many times. Now I fear I have become one of them. I am so down that I can not see day light. I need time which is lacking. I am healthy but ill at the same time. I will end this now.......................................

Just wanted to let you all know that if I didn't have Rachel I would be lost in this wierd ass world!