Dearest Kraig, I thought that you loved me in the beginning then I loved you. I now think that I love you more in the end. I didn't want to break up with you; especially on our ten month annaversery. I am writing this in hopes that you will find it. I broke up with you so you would be happy. I know and you know that we've been done since begining of summer. I honestly doubt we will be back together ever again. In a way you took my virginty. You are the first love of my life, I hope some day we can be friends. I hope you didn't stay with me cuz you thought I wanted it. I don't think that is true. You would have broke it off. I hope you're not mad at me for writng this, but I need to let this out. I have no strength to live and I don't want to fall in love ever again. I will understand if you don't want to see, talk to me ever again. Knowing that I had some one who loved me for a while was more then enough and for that I will not forget. But, for now I am a mess. I can't stop cring. I roll over at night and you're not there it kills me. I would love to be dead right now just so I can't feel the pain in my chest anymore. I will always love you and I hope you know I have never meant you harm.