I am going to fade away for a while.
I don't know why, but I feel that I am not destined for a friendship with him. For some reason that is bothering me. For the second time in my life I am left thinking what did I do. When I think that he just lied to spear my feelings. I don't get why people do that I guess I may be too honest about life, but what are you going to do about that. If I never have a singfagant other in my life I just may be fine with that. I guess seeing all my friends "happy" with their relationships made me want it (a relationship). As I write this I realize that I was happy without a person in my life but hey. I guess I am just pissed at myself for not reading between the lines like I should have. I am so looking forward to talking with a psychologist and maybe moving on with my "issues" and finding my real self, if that really exsits. If therapy doesn't work I just may gas up my car and go west for a while and maybe write my book and live as a bum. I hate having responsibilities those are the only reasons I stay here. Well I have wasted enough of your time so I guess I will see you all some time soon. I am sure that one of you all will have a party after I get out of the WTF mode I am in right now. Lord if this is a broken heart. I need more help then I thought maybe I will see you all soon If not I will proally be out west. Love yah all.
Friday, March 24, 2006
Monday, March 20, 2006
Fill this out if you would like a LTR.
1. Name:
2. Age:
3. Height:
4. Hair color:
5. Top/Bottom:
6. Fav Drink:
7. Do you go tanning?
8. Cuddle or make out?
9. Do you think im attractive?
10. Are you conceited?
11. Where do you work?
12. Are you in school?
13. Living situation: 14. How much do you weigh?
15. Piercings?
16. Tattos?
17. Fav clothing style?
18. Can you cook?...(I can)....
19. Do you drive? 20. Are you looking for an LTR?
21. If we were together would you try to make me feel special?
22. Do you have any questions about me?
23. What would make me choose you over someone else?
Number five does not need to be answered by the women.
1. Name:
2. Age:
3. Height:
4. Hair color:
5. Top/Bottom:
6. Fav Drink:
7. Do you go tanning?
8. Cuddle or make out?
9. Do you think im attractive?
10. Are you conceited?
11. Where do you work?
12. Are you in school?
13. Living situation: 14. How much do you weigh?
15. Piercings?
16. Tattos?
17. Fav clothing style?
18. Can you cook?...(I can)....
19. Do you drive? 20. Are you looking for an LTR?
21. If we were together would you try to make me feel special?
22. Do you have any questions about me?
23. What would make me choose you over someone else?
Number five does not need to be answered by the women.
Birthday Ideas.
Following suite with everyone, I am having a 21st bash. It will be at my house in STC and in the barn (no animals). I will have food and a keg and some type of juice for the non-drinkers. We will have a bon fire, beer, food , pool, and movies in the barn and limited house access. My birthday is July 16th this year it is on a Sunday. So the party will start at 12:01 Sunday morn and hopefully go through the next day. The first Keg is on me the second will be a five dollar botomless cup. Also, for the lightweights, i.e Chris it will cost you a mere six dollars a cup. I would say bring your swim suits but we all know what booze + pool = NUDITY!!! So lets keep it rated R and not XXX that because my mum might kill me if she sees any of my friends having sex in or around her house/pool. RSVP with me before the party so I know how much of everything to get.
Following suite with everyone, I am having a 21st bash. It will be at my house in STC and in the barn (no animals). I will have food and a keg and some type of juice for the non-drinkers. We will have a bon fire, beer, food , pool, and movies in the barn and limited house access. My birthday is July 16th this year it is on a Sunday. So the party will start at 12:01 Sunday morn and hopefully go through the next day. The first Keg is on me the second will be a five dollar botomless cup. Also, for the lightweights, i.e Chris it will cost you a mere six dollars a cup. I would say bring your swim suits but we all know what booze + pool = NUDITY!!! So lets keep it rated R and not XXX that because my mum might kill me if she sees any of my friends having sex in or around her house/pool. RSVP with me before the party so I know how much of everything to get.
Sunday, March 05, 2006
I wish I was STILL an only child!!!!!!!!!!!!
Okay, my mom and I were to go to Home Depot and get some paint and carpet for my room today. Then, Jerrad gets up and wants to go. imedatedly after that she says "I don't want to go." All, because she can't say no to him. WTF!!! She will go places with him and not me. Then her car breaks down agian and I am inconvininced yet agian. I can't drive my own car to and fro. Seriously GET A NEW FUCKING CAR. I don't mind every blue moon loaning my car out, but come on it is just about every other day now. Damn, I need to get away. I can't wait to go to the mall of America this summer and Ohio on Friday.
I feel like I am serving a perison term. I work two jobs and go to school full time. In reality I should be banking mad cash but I am not I am still paying bills off. I have not spent money on myself all year. I am really getting anncy to spend some money after this pay check I have decide to spend some of my money on me. I want to go to the outlet mall or maybe Great Lakes Crossing. Any takers, Jeff, Rachel??? I'm looking at you two.
So, the theater keeps trying to push me into the MIT position. I don't want to be a manager there. I am 20 going on 21 I feel like I am 20 going on 31. I want to enjoy my youth while I can and before I settle down and start a life of my own. I want to make my mistakes now so when I am in my forties I don't feel like I missed out on anything in this life. Yes, I have down a lot of thing thus far, but alas I want to more such as parities and I will avoid the whole getting so mashed thing like at Annas party. I think I handled myself, way, better at Al's preimer.
So, my grandmother is in the hospital. That is way I was able to get today off from work. On the lucky side of it all she is responeding better to the meds and just might pull it off. I feel a little bad about taking today off seeing how she might be okay, but I needed a day off where I don't have to do any homework. Well I have ran out of time, so I will pick my my rante a little later. Sorry about all the spelling mistakes I just don't care right now.
Okay, my mom and I were to go to Home Depot and get some paint and carpet for my room today. Then, Jerrad gets up and wants to go. imedatedly after that she says "I don't want to go." All, because she can't say no to him. WTF!!! She will go places with him and not me. Then her car breaks down agian and I am inconvininced yet agian. I can't drive my own car to and fro. Seriously GET A NEW FUCKING CAR. I don't mind every blue moon loaning my car out, but come on it is just about every other day now. Damn, I need to get away. I can't wait to go to the mall of America this summer and Ohio on Friday.
I feel like I am serving a perison term. I work two jobs and go to school full time. In reality I should be banking mad cash but I am not I am still paying bills off. I have not spent money on myself all year. I am really getting anncy to spend some money after this pay check I have decide to spend some of my money on me. I want to go to the outlet mall or maybe Great Lakes Crossing. Any takers, Jeff, Rachel??? I'm looking at you two.
So, the theater keeps trying to push me into the MIT position. I don't want to be a manager there. I am 20 going on 21 I feel like I am 20 going on 31. I want to enjoy my youth while I can and before I settle down and start a life of my own. I want to make my mistakes now so when I am in my forties I don't feel like I missed out on anything in this life. Yes, I have down a lot of thing thus far, but alas I want to more such as parities and I will avoid the whole getting so mashed thing like at Annas party. I think I handled myself, way, better at Al's preimer.
So, my grandmother is in the hospital. That is way I was able to get today off from work. On the lucky side of it all she is responeding better to the meds and just might pull it off. I feel a little bad about taking today off seeing how she might be okay, but I needed a day off where I don't have to do any homework. Well I have ran out of time, so I will pick my my rante a little later. Sorry about all the spelling mistakes I just don't care right now.
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