Many people bug me.

I am not a fan a people today. I don't know why but I have just been a little more cranky than usual. Today I snapped at someone just because I felt they took too long getting my stuff. I was the only one in there so I felt that they should have been able to get me my food right away, but know they took 10mins to get my food, damn fast food workers. In other news, looks like I might be able to get a new car on my birthday, that is if I am not working for Disney this summer, here's to hoping that I will be working for Walt this summer however, I will need time off for my European vaction. That however can wait I might be done with work by the first week of August anyway. Well that is all for this update I have nothing other to say to people. OH wait here is one more thing, I could snap at any minute. Bye.

Should I or Shouldn't I?

Well, Delta sent me an e-mail, I am sure all Delta students got it as well. Well I am serously contemplaiting the idea of working for Disney for the spirng/summer durastion. It is a paid internship, I just wonder how much money I will get paid, and if the take out cost of living, and all that wonderment(for use a better word). However if I put Disney under the refence side, then, it might help me find a better job, when I have to come back to this one horse town, and I might have enough cash saved up to buy a car, and maybe move out and get an apartment, that is if I can find a job when I come back. If you have an opioion on this let me know.

Sweet Procrastion, How I've Missed Thee!

It has seemed to me that when, I work I am more discplined. It just seems that way, when I had homework due on tuesday, and I worked on Tuesday I did all my homework on Monday, instead of Tuesday. I really hate being un-employed. Not because of the lack of money, but because I have too much time on my hands, that leaves me with thinking, and talking to my family, have you ever tried to talk to my step-dad, it is like pulling teeth from an infant.

Well I am really bored now, and I want to go and do something, seeing how I am not in the homework mood, I geuss I will just watch a movie.

You people seem down, Why?`

Okay, I have read Jeff and Rachel's blogs and they seem to be a little down, or just wondering what is going on with us (them) today. I am purposeing we all forget about what is bathering us for now and have some fun, Movie anyone?? Well, I am not up, nor down, just some where in between. I ask you this, Why..... (you fill in the rest.) Why do I have an urage, to pack my truck up and drive to a far away place, that won't stop my troubles, they will undoubtly follow me there. The urage is caused by wanting a break from the so called troubles, if I leave now, they won't have time to follow me right away, because I will be thinking about getting to where I am going. Then once I have a spear second, they will re-appear, and back to a different destaion. I could even go to in-comutocato, un-reachable. But I won't I will stay and fight another battle today and for the rest of my life, untill I get to go to my grave.... Just because I run they will follow me and if I stay here they will be right back in my head untill I have no troubles at all then that will be the day I die.....

I have a really cool short story coming up, just not now!

Okay.
Friday went out and ate with Rachel, Anna, Jeff, Dan, Alex, Josh and a lot more people too, they were the ones that cameout to my house afterwards. The food was okay, and the cake was good. One of the two movies was good. I also got hit by a damn deer. Sadly my truck is fine, luckily I am fine and so is Jeff. Well I have to go now and sleep.

Hey, just a quick post here.

Okay, I told Miss. Rachel what movies I have here, ( I will post them at the end). I also need to know who is coming here to watch movies, all is invited, but I just need the numbers.

American pie.
American Pie 2.
American Wedding.
Signs.
Spiderman 1.
Childs, play.
Taking lives.
Euro trip.
Sleepy hallow.
The order.
LXG.
Triple x.
Scary movie 1.
Scary movie 2.
Scary movie 3.
Panic room.
8crazy nights.
Scooby doo 1.
Scooby doo 2.
Murder by numbers.
Psycho the original.
The ring.
Wrong turn.
Fast and furious.
Austin Powers.

Austin Powers. The spy who shagged me.
Austin Powers Gold Member.
Gothica.
Boat trip
Texas chain saw mass.
13 ghost’s original.
8 mile.
Interview with the vampire.
Badder Santa.
House.
Elvira.
George of the Jungle.
Hocus pocus.
Howling III.
Jack Frost 2.
Curse of the Demon.
The Underneath.
The Serpent and the Rainbow.

Abbott and Costello Meet Frankenstein.
Silent Night Deadly night.
Studio 54.
Joy ride.
Mummy 1.
The Mummy Returns.
Halloween 1.
H2O.
Harry Potter 1.
Harry Potter 3.
Friday the 13.
Friday the 13 2.
Finding Nemo. Twister.
Big fish.
White chicks.
Bride of chucky.
Men In Black.
Idle hands.
Stigmata.
Blare witch.
Ace venture pet Detective.
The haunting.
Big daddy.
Next Friday.
Scream 1.
Scream 2.
Scream 3.
I still know what you did last summer.
Blade.
Vampires.
Batman forever.
Wild Wild West.
Fight club. Final destination.
End of days.
Mall rats.
Barb wire.
Liar Liar.
The sixth sense.

I have old hands.

I was bored today inbetween classes and I was looking at my hands and I noticed that they look really old. So I did that elasticity test on them and the knuckles took like 30 secs to snap back. Most of the skin on my fingures is still tight, but they just look really old. I wonder if it could be from all the sun my fingres get. This is starting to scar me or I am I just blowing this whole old fingures thing out of the water? Another thing I noticed is that my knuckles are really wide. I think it is from cracking them all of the time. well got to go for now class is starting.

What morals do we really have?

When you hear about a teenage lady and a 40 year old man are seen together we all say child rapist, don't we?! Everyday I see some old fart dating or "married" to this young bombshell, I want to tell them that they married them or are with them just for what little cash they may or may not have. That is not the point of this entry.

Who says that older women can date younger men, and most people have a tendency to say "Good for her". Most men say good for him he got a hot older chick all of the new sexual tricks he will learn, hot. But when a forty year old man dates a younger women of say 19 we all think Gross! However most men his age think sweet, he ditched the old ball and chian for this hot thing, just out of high school. What pisses me off is that because of T.V and News, people are afraid to date eachother because of the age differences. However, in the early years it was bery common for men to marry younger women. I'm not sure if younger men married older women, however, I do disagree with that. When younger men date older women, as my mom would say " It should be for a good time, not a long time." I have to agree with that in away. The cons of dating older women, Depending on the age, No kids, + and -, new sexual exprencies, short life expectency + and -. But women who date much older men they have to deal with immpotence and a weaker eraction. So I say as long as it is okay with both parties then let them be, provding that it's not a 16 year old and a 40+ year old going together, that should be the moral line of this socitey. Maybe I am just not really stating the point I wanted to, but I have stated one point that I agree with. There need to be a line drawn, but the only people that can make that point are the people that involved. So as children we have to let are parents know of the intenions we have with that person and to be honest with that other person and with ourselves.
AS we grow and raise our own children we must remeber that once they start dating, we can nolonger run their life. For fear that they will be pushed away and not aloud to say "told you so", just be a less blunt then that when all goes wrong, after all we had thoughs kids to show love, determion, strength, and for someone to take care of us when we leave our indepent lives and go back into diapers. If we put a wedge between us and our kids, we might have to go into a home, or worse yet not get the hot nurse that is hired to take care of us. So in short, what is the best way to let kids grow up?

Not Even Febury, Yet!

All right who in the hell came up with this day. Hearts, Cupids, and LOVE. I get people fall in love, but to flounet it in front of everyone else. You could say that I am a bitter person, and I hate romance, but I don't hate romance. Yes, I am a little bit biter, but live my life for a day and you would too. I know Valentines day is a little more then a month away, but I hate all that mushy shit. I would rather sit on a bunch of thorns, and have hemriods. For the romance part, if I had S.O.S. I would be romantic, providing that she doesn't piss me off to much. Maybe I just need to work on myself a little bit, but what could I work on? No, I am not saying that I am perfect, but who is? Tell me who is perfect and I will show you somone who is hiding something. Do not get me wrong I think starving to be perfect is, kinda of good, but let me ask you what is perfect? Men that are 6'ft tall, a perfectly cementrical face, pecks, six pack and that are so vein they have no time for anything else. Or women that are 5'5, small wasit, blond hair, blue eyes, and after every child they get there former waist back. Now let me ask you, who told you that this is the perfect looking person,( not the perfect one for you, I know what tells us that). I will tell you who told us this the same people that put people on the cover of magizines. I say we tell them what is perfect, but again to use the perfect person is what our brains tell us, not what the magiznes tell us. Then again our brains tell us what is perfect and the magiznes tell us who we should look and we all fall into that from time to time, don't we? well I got off topic and went from hateing Valentines day, to just complaing abaout life in general. See ya later.

I need to change.

Okay for those of who have seen my room you know what it looks like, for the ones that don't you should come and visit me. I want to paint my dark walls white, put this sound proof foam on my walls. Get ride of the Goth, but I kind of like my vampire, lamp, mirror, and devil poster. I want to turn my room back into a room, definitely get ride of the couch, and get my water bed back. However Lisa won't let me, " I don't have the space, in my room!" I do if I can get ride of my desk and a couple other things. Don't get me wrong I like all my stuff, but I want to go for the minimal effect in here. I don't know why though. So I purpose this plan, I WILL GET A JOB, AND THEN AN APARTMENT. After I pay for Europe. Well I really don't have much to say.

Oh, yea I forgot, I have lost 4 pounds, and have not drank any pop or caffeine for that matter, I feel great. I want to go out and celebrate this weekend anyone game?

Back From The Dead!?

Hey, folks thought I would let you know Im not dead I just have no news to write about, at this time anyways. I am in school and class is going to start soon so I will update sooner or later proably a lot later.

Ryan's Deep Thought of The Week.

Quite recently I saw a lady talking to herself, and I thought she must have had multiple personalities. Or whatever it is when they talk to themsevles. Onward to the thought. So I was thinking, that maybe we all have that mental disorder where we talk to ourselves and we don't really excise. Meaning that we are just really someone elses personality, and when we are not in use we live in what we call the "real world." But then I thought were do we go when we are in use then it hit me; when we are in use we sleep. If you think about it we don't all sleep at the same time. So I have to wonder if what we call 2005 isn't really there. And maybe the people we call friends are not there, and we can only see them because we are using the persons mind to produce them. But then again, what about the past of all of our friends. So I know that we all really do exist. All so from what I have been taught in Psychology is that I have oversimplifed life. That lead me to think what is the meaning of life. So this is how I can intrupet the meaning of life. Life is what we all want it to be. If we want to teach then we teach, we do what we want. The "bitter people" are the ones not making the most of life and say everyone is just dumping on them and that they are the "systems Bitch." Well that is all I don't think I have stated all that I wanted to nor that I stated it correctly but I do have a lot on my mind right now. So until I can speak about what I want, about what is going on in my life, well my family's lives, I am going to sign off for now and maybe I won't be back for a while well see y' all later bye for now.


P.s
I am going to Vegas for my 21'st birthday, anyone want to go let me know bye.

I need to say this!

Okay first of all I want to applogize to anyone that I might have offended. I am really and truely sorry if I was an ass too anyone last night. I also have a video tape of us drinking and if anyone wants a copy of the tape let me know and I will make you a copy. Watching the downward spiral of the drinking last night. How in the hell I didn't throw up last night I don't know this, but I think it was a good thing that I didnt; all the toliets were taken at one point and yes the bath tub as well. Hey is anyone really feeling the hangover effects from the party let me know, cuz I don't have one, hmm? Well I have to admit that I had a really great time at Jeff's last night and I do belive that we all had a lot of laughs too. Shot watching some of them trying to walk was fun in it's self. Well I'm gonna get going for right now I think I am going to shower and run to the store and pick up some blank tapes. Ps None of us (from jeff's party) can run for public office, see yaa!

this is a note to Ryan call grandma and make sure that jeff is ok to come to ohio.
I am totally drunk on januray 1 2005. Rachel please call me when u read this update. Well I am soo drunk I dont have a clue on what i am doing so hey i know i need a comma somwhere or even a period but i am too drunk to know this later to alll who can see this.